KENAPA PERLU JALANKAN AMANAH DENGAN BAIK

Sebelum ni, aku pernah ditugaskan untuk sediakan dokumen2 untuk masuk tender.

Tapi mungkin aku berguru dengan orang yang salah. Kami x dapat tender tu.


Di hari kemudian, aku dengar ada nak masuk tender. Tapi kepercayaan x diberikan pada aku. Aku redha. Bila orang atas tahu yang aku tahu tentang hal tu, mereka kata minta aku monitor. Tapi, aku tahu tu kata-kata untuk memujuk hati aku. Aku pun x adalah nak masuk campur sangat.


Apabila dokumen2 invitation to tender diterima. Aku tanyalah juga jika perlukan bantuan aku. Tapi PIC kata ok je tinggal dokumen2 dari staf yang blm dibuat. Sehingga 2 hari sebelum, katanya tinggal susun2 dokumen. Aku pun beri kepercayaan aku sahaja. Mungkin salah aku, aku x periksa. Tapi aku pun xnk micromanage sbb dia pun org lama, pengalaman dia lagi besar. Atas dasar rasa hormat, aku x adalah nk persoalkan apa2.


Sehari sebelum tarikh hantar tender, dia beri checklist pada aku dan detail dokumen untuk aku semak. Maka, aku pun tolong semak. Aku terdiam kejap. Sungguh banyak dokumen yang belum buat. YA, dokumen yang memang sedia ada, mungkin kau dah ada tapi dokumen2 yang kau kena create, semua x ada. Di depan aku hanya ada tender yang siap ala kadar.

Bila ditanya, katanya...alaa, tolak 1 markah je..yg tu tolak 1 markah je..xpe x ada..

Aku tak tau dia fikir mcm mana. Kau tau x kt luar tu org berebut2 nak dapatkan tender. Kau pula macam melepaskan batuk di tangga.

Akhir cerita, kami hantar dokumen, ya semua dokumen ada tapi dalam keadaan x siap seperti yang dikehendaki.


Kau rasa kenapa penting kau perlu buat ni dengan baik? Kalau kita dah usaha sehabis baik, kita boleh kata itu memang bukan rezeki kita. Tapi bila kau buat sambil lewa, memang kau sebenarnya memohon untuk kegagalan.

Cuba fikir, kalau x dapat tender tu, apa blh jadi? Income company kurang kan. So, apa kesannya?

- Pekerja tidak dinaikkan gaji

- Pekerja boleh dibuang kerja

- Kewangan syarikat nampak tidak baik - susah nak dapatkan tender2 lain

- Perkembangan syarikat pn terbatas

dan macam2 lagi..


TOLONGLAH BUAT KERJA DENGAN SEBAIKNYA


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How I learn most of the time


If there is no other commitments, I would have do this all day long..

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DAY 1 in new Pre-School and Playschool

Boys in early Morning

Its their first day school for 2020.

After 1 year in Little Caliph, decided to change Harith to TADIKA NALURI Kreatif.
Reasons for doing so is:
1. Better environment as its a landed house (more outdoor activities)
2. Harith seems not too excited going to Little Caliph after few months
3. There are other boys that Harith always state as the reasons he doesn't want to go to school
I really hope he will enjoy this pre-school through the year

cerita sebelum sampai, tertidur on the way

advance betul, thumb print gi school

Tarikan utama yg berjaya buat Harith nk school sini

Berpeluh2 main
This is what we call kids activity



Untuk Ahmad Ersyad pula, lepas ting tong sana sini, decided untuk hantar Future Totz Childcare Centre.
This was Harith's nursery before he went for pre-school.
They help a lot with Harith's gadget addiction (due to staying with grandparents).
After try my best to allocate the budget, manage to get Ersyad here as well.
The best part is, they changing it to playschool starting this year and its suit my heart's will well.




Before going by himself, I put both my sons here through Dec 2019, hoping Ersyad can adapt well with the new environment.
But of course he still cry every morning..just have to face it as currently he's having his separation anxiety phase.
It is my intention to expose him with lots of exposure that can stimulate his development well.
I really hope this effort worth.



















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2020

Its 2020
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I put a meaning in this pic and choose it.
You can see how 0, 2, and 0 leaning on each other with a solid base of '2'.
So, if our base or we can take it as AZAM is strong enough, everything will keep standing eventhough not straight enough.

I had never have AZAM actually in my life previously.
Starting this year, I want to make a strong AZAM and purpose of life.

This blog will be the diary of my upcoming journey. Keeping all the memories that will make a better me.

So, my AZAM is simple.
I want to become a better person who always see myself as a success woman either as a person, a servant, a wife, a mother and even in my work path.

LIFE will not make it easy for us but we can make it easy when we start to control our destiny.

I pray so much that, all those dark days will not haunting me again as I want a better life with my family.

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BISMILLAHHIRRAHMANNIRRAHIM

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Main ke Belajar?

Last 2 weeks, me n husband pergi parenting seminar.

Its about how to deal with our children through their childhood.
One of the speaker keep highlighting the importance of play for the children.
And she doesn't agree that parents keep highlight the academic needs since young.

As for me, I do agree, our children need to play. Its their time to play.
And I always belief that we learn much more through play.
Yup its good for their EQ. Yes, EQ is very important..but we can't neglect the IQ part..
Somehow, they support each other in many ways.

For me, those with good EQ but low on IQ can survive if they on their own only
and those with good IQ but low on EQ can also survive but MORE STRUGGLE
but those with good EQ and good IQ can benefit others even the community so much more..
Its really difficult to explain or get my thought out on this particular things..
Its just something that you need to experience

Its undeniable that PLAY are for children but we must consider other aspect as well.
In the developed country, this concept is applicable. But for our country, which is a developing country where the citizens still struggling to earn a cents, where its still using the old-style education system, only Play will not work.

one thing we must remember, among children pun ada semangat kompetitif, ada perasaan ingin diterima di kalangan rakan-rakan sebaya.
In Malaysia, darjah 1 dah perlu membaca dan kenal nombor..so, secara x langsung, parents akan target untuk perkara tu.
Just imagine, bila kita terapkan main sahaja...no exposure to alphabets and numbers, masuk sekolah, when they see that their friends already know numbers and alphabets even reading and to calculate, how would they feel about themselves? belum hadap budak2 yg jenis mengejek lagi...all these does effect their EQ during that time...So? 

For me, the concept betul tp kita kena sesuaikan dengan environment kita..
contoh mcm kids in the war country, kita dah saksikan, budak 5-6 tahun dah pandai pegang all kind of guns..with the tactical move and byk lagi...kita nk kata mereka salah ke? parents mereka salah ke?

So, sesuaikanlah..

Sekarang kita banyak pilihan, tadika yang terapkan belajar dalam bermain pn dah banyak...
tak memaksa mereka untuk tahu semua, tp at least kita dah exposed them to things that required in our system..

Masing2 ada cara sendiri dalam mentafsir dan mengaplikasikan..x minta terima my way of thinking because everyone have their own pertimbangan dalam membuat keputusan n I respect that because I know niat semua sama, nk beri yang terbaik..

Oklah, hope bermanfaat..nk bla dah..office nk tutup.

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Job seeker



Its been a while since I seek for another job. Its not I'm ungrateful to work with my father which there are a lot of free time, more flexible time and etc. But, I need a life challenge, here particularly work challenge. So that, I can claim that I'm a success person.

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The reason of me furthering study to Master level is to equip myself with new skill to make it easier in applying job. But, when I put it in resume, employer tend to reject immediately maybe because they they don't want to pay more for me (for the extra degree). Why not, if I'm suit for the position, call me first, then ask if I'm OK with the pay they want to offer. I don't know, or maybe I'm not even reach their lowest requirement. Who knows.

This is cliche, the employer always prefer the experienced one. Its not easy to find the work experience or maybe we are the one who chose the starting job.

Thinking of swapping to other field. Need to start from the ground. I'm ok with it but as having my own family, its quite difficult when the salary can't match my commitment needs. At the end, I have to choose a good job with a good salary.

At the end, need to go back to Allah and ask Him to show His guidance in my career by Istikharah.

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Biting own tongue

 




I and my husband always fight over Chinese ancient drama (my favorite) and Tamil drama (his favorite). He is the one who always start it. While watching the drama (fighting scene), he will said, these Chinese drama always over react. Just a punch, and the blood spill out like a gallon. And I said back, its still can be accepted than the Tamil drama. I said to him, in Tamil drama, how hard the guy being punched, then fall from high place, hit by a car and etc; but he still ok. That what we call 'no logic'.

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Almost every ancient chinese drama, there will be a scene where the actor/actress will bite their tongue in order to kill themselves. And 100% they will die immediately. Watching this just now (currently watching Legend of Hao Lan), reminded me of a patient during my housemanship in medical department 5 years ago.

During my tagging night around 10pm (I'm about to leave), the nurse suddenly call me saying the patient was biting his tongue and lot of bloods coming out. The patient was a post coma patient, at the time, her whole body was paralyze. I attend to her and saw her tongue was cut and bleeding. I asked the staff nurse to suction out the blood. At the same time, we put the oropharyngeal airway (or guedel) to prevent her from keep biting her tongue but she kept push the guedel out using her tongue. The last thing we did was tape in the guedel to her mouth and put gauzes to the side.

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I was very mad at the time. I raised a bit of my voice and ask the patient to stop fighting our effort to stop her bleeding. Then, after a while, she stop (I think, she got tired). Then, while waiting for my MO to come, I sat at the nurse centre. They said that, the patient always try to bite her tongue as she want to die faster. Previously, during in ICU, her husband comes almost every day. But after few months, her husband rarely come and now only come once a week or biweekly.

My MO come and just ask if everything is ok. As I remembered, she did not go to the patient. She only do the report clerking based on our story to the computer. I really sad to see this kind of MO. Even in her management plan, she does not include to refer to psychologist or psychiatry department (I already suggest to her). After she went back to whereever she come (As I know, there are no other urgent cases she need to attend at the time). Then, I chart my part of reporting. I state in my management, to refer the patient to psychology department and to monitor her hourly as she was losing lots of bloods just now.

Then, I went to the patient bed. I gave her some advice. For whatever happened, u can be sad, u can cry out loud, but please don't harm or try to kill yourselves. Allah gave you this test, and you're getting lot of pahala for this. By killing yourselves, you will just go straight to the hell. Is it worth? I may not know or felt her pain at the time. I know she felt hopeless. In addition she was losing her moral support. Then, I said to her. I don't know what u feel about your husband, but there could be so many reason for him to come only one time a week. But to ease your thought, think positively. Maybe, he have lots of work need to be done back home. Maybe there are other problem that he can't tell you as he doesn't want to burden you. So, keep istighfar. Then, I saw her take a breath and I can see her cooling down. After about 15 minutes, I came back to her bed, and I can see her sleeping calmly. Then only, I went back home (Tomorrow need to punch in before 7am)


I'm not bragging out
its just my satisfaction






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